Posted by juliebernal | Filed under Diabetes/Blood Sugar, Research/Support/Hope, Total Pancreatectomy & Auto-Islet Cell Transplant (TP/AIT)
Sept. 9, 2011
Auto Islet Transplant! I’m living proof that you can live without your pancreas and still have a chance of not being a brittle diabetic. This transplant can really work! I’m about three months and a few weeks post my transplant and I’m proud to say that I’m off insulin. Three days of being insulin free! It is truly amazing.
Not all have such great luck while others do. I just feel very lucky right now. I think when I go into something so big (like surgery after surgery) I tend to have doubts and question my luck. When it’s one thing after another, I kind of get used to the disappointment and illness that comes along with it. I’ve learned to adjust. I don’t think I really took time to feel sorry for myself, I just got used to thinking that things don’t always go the way I think they will. That is life. But I’ve always been a positive person. I’ve been a fighter. I’ve been filled with hope. But through it all, I’ve been very realistic with my illness, while other days it still just seems like a dream or like I’m watching some one’s life. I know who I am and this illness is not who I am. Yes, it has changed me – changed me greatly. But I still remember who I was before being sick. I still long to be the same person I was. I can say, a part of me really thought that I would have a hard time with being diabetic. It’s weird the things we fear. I was facing death, pain that kept me from being able to walk some days, and I could hardly keep water down. I feared having to check my blood sugars and giving myself shots? Yes, I really feared it. It was going to be new. I know most people about to have the TP/AIT say the same thing. They fear becoming diabetic. For me, after the surgery I realised that pricking my finger throughout the day wasn’t so bad. Having blood sugars drop low or having sugars jump around isn’t much fun at all. But really it isn’t anything compared to the pain I had with pancreatitis. The life I had right before my surgery was no way to live. It was trying to survive. I had fear and I faced it. Now I’m off insulin. It doesn’t always go the way you think it will. Not everyone gets the perfect outcome, but when something so amazing happens (finally) it is very much worth celebrating. Let’s hope that I continue to stay on this path and that my blood sugar levels remain normal. All I can say is, what an amazing transplant indeed!